Enemies Within

2005-08-18T17:26:00.000+08:00

First of all Lemme Say thank u to Ms Zuhrah.
Cos i am Loving my job or rather say the Environment.
haha but then sad thing is that, it'll be short lived.
Haiz good things dun really last forever huh?

Yest...taught this Pri 5 class Maths Supplementary...
flashbacks jus reeled in my mind.
Whr some irritatin boys in my class gettin noisy..& tryin all ways to get the Teacher's Attention.Wat i can remember is my Cher sayin or rather beggin those boys not to distract the rest of our classmates.

Haiz...not surprisingly, such classroom traditions of these boys will never stop. & there's such a boy in my class. Heedin to some of my colleagues' advices... was jus ignorin him.

Life'S A Rose for the Optmists

2005-08-18T17:05:00.000+08:00

Life's A bouquet of Roses for those who wish to stay optimistic.
& its rather miserable for those who dun see it tat way.

Well on tues nite...I met this gal whom i gotta know thru Fridae.
Haha...& to my surprise her BF is my fren whom I lost contact for 7 years.

Some1 i thought i'l never meet again.
Gosh he's so lucky...he's 3yrs her junior.
Mus be his wisdom thoughts of life got him to be attached wit an older Gal..
Glad to know, that I've changed alot(for better), thru him...

Hey Hey Hey

2005-08-17T09:48:00.000+08:00

Yawns...WAt a long absence? Haha...life's happenings has brought me back to my bloggin self.
Oh How i miss Bloggin huh...

& WHERE IS MY TAG BOARD??? Gone cos for inactivity.... But i hardly see mine been optimized. Will make do without one for time being.

Thank god my new Job is like desk bound...& i've the luxury of sittin down & get glued to the Amusement Screen

2005-07-02T19:48:00.000+08:00

Here, now, the real life's drama is gonna commence.

Life seemed to be too good to be True...
REgrets are mounting high & piling up.

ok, gotta start findin a new job.
Hate the thought of gg for a deskbound job, wish have all the $$ in the world to do wat i want.
For those Dreams...

2005-06-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

jus gimme 2 years amma..Jus 2 years.
A non-serious reply ever ready to my Granny whenever she asks when i am gonna work & support her & my family.

Gone is the lady who bearly cant wait any longer to seek peace in the Astral World.

How am i to pay the Debts i owed her for life?
A lady, whose legal decision, changed my fate 18yrs ago.
For which i owed her my entire Life.

I cant write how much I owed her in life, as it will hurt my B**th rights.
But its my Good karma brought over frm my past life, has made me live my 23 years wit u!
Most importantly To Grow up in Safe HAnds.

I jus cant pen dwn my gratitute, as it will be unfair if i were to leave out any minute details.

In Distraught, MISSING U ALwaYS Dear "ma" as i am your only grandchild to call u as Mother. & also the one whom u claim to be your 10th Child.

Pls Come back to me as MY Child.

Beloved Granny
1939-2005

2005-04-30T13:52:00.000+08:00

WHAT am I???
Wat impression do I Carry, Whats wrong with me?

IT sucks when u start to realise ya self,

When truth is takin its toll...

Love Sucks...
It sux when i realise that things are nt gg to wrk out anymore wit u!

Helpin me doesnt mean u love me...

Many a times u fail to know wat i wanted in life...u failed to understand my feelings.
U didnt bother my interests & dislikes... & harldy bother to work on it...
All u care was just to call u as my Lover...

Cos u had no1 to turn to..or not lookin for...
We're in diff world la...i may fly away from u, if i find a better world...

Haiz thats y ppl say dun fall in love too fast, too young.

I'm neva sure u pining for me is love or not...but u'r jus too jealous to know that I'm gonna have a Better man than u!
OOHHH isnt tat a Childish tot...

I'm not here to get married, have kids, impress ya Family etc...
I have my own ambitions, dreams.
Dun bother sayin or give me lip service that U'll be there...
Trust me, U'll run away...or ya as usual discomforts will start tauntin u!!!

Its really my Fuckin Fault to give u too much Trust in the Beginning...
But no matter wat, I'm not gg to be ungrateful to u for wat u have done..
My gratitude for u is guranteed there..but dun wanna Tie it with Love...
Its a whole lot Diff game we play...

2005-04-16T02:07:00.000+08:00

People...
if u find that movie Ad showing an Horror version of "Titanic's similar" wet palm Print smeared on the Glass, MOvie CREEP Creepy...
well u're Creeping Wrong...
That Movie SuX..
for me Its jus an alter version of a Best Sellin Novel to a Best Read Blog's article ...

Its abt An Ill-formed creature Killin London's Subway's last minute Commuters.

Leavin the Heroine alive, even though in one scene she appeared eye to eye wit Torch light beamin loud at this Pervese Creature.

A movie showin a narrow escape of a woman,who's almost to be Raped,is yet to face the Worse.
Another Plotless Movie where there are Labs filled wit Foetuses(Only God know how its there in undergrnds in 1st place,),& mysterious Offices & tunnels that have 100 odd links all in an Underground Subway.

Moral of the Story...Dun trust the Movie critics. if they give u 3 or more popcorns outta 5 popcorns, It must be the no. of boxes of popcorns they've been tryin 2 complete during dat BORING movie..
Million Dollar baby, is one of such movies..a total disappointment

Rather watch Sahara...where my Dream Bodied lookalike Penelope Cruz is acting.
thats tongue in cheek I know...but her Body's hot. Jus wat i wanna.

*Think Munah will scrap her fave Nick Cruz after readin this...*

2005-04-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

Oh Its Tamil NEw Year...
The tamil months are never in my finger tips. I know nuts abt it...
But i do know that some "Good& Bad omen months" or its Auspiciousness so to say..

Well This is the Chitirai Month. Where its first day, which's today, marks the Tamil New Year...

& this year is called PArthipa Year...Thanks to Ms R...

Well on the Irony the Dravidans (Tamil-speakin) dun really regard this to be a Good month...
Y? cos its a Hot month...lands become barren, harvests are futile! The Drought WEather is never supportive for the agriculturists..The heat soars & scorches the south Indian People.
No Wonder Sun TV airs too many Air-Con Advertisements...sorry Farmers!

Hopefully the New Year turns out to be a Smooth Flowing one...
Jus For ME!!!

Good or not,,,I'l be able to see it thru tmr! haha...yeah Tmr! kee kee...*naughty Smiles*

2005-04-12T15:27:00.000+08:00

was bored at HomE
NothinG Much to Do!

Weather is gettin unpredictable as the ongoing Casino IssuE
Got myself a haircut, which looks like i splashed $13 jus for the scissors & comb to
kiss my HairSS.

Oh ya, been workin out too.
But it wont seem to work for Soccer, unless i go for some "tuition".

Wat else...
Think NUS can dump into the Drain.

So be4 i get into workin wOrlD, lemme Enjoy myself!
Shul start planninG, as if I'm good at it?

2005-04-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

Ms Congeniality was cool...
had a good time, entertaining though!
But i still think i can snort better than Bullock!

Had a last puff today!
Telling myself
I'm so much gonna quit
tellin myself..
No more astraying
Total abstinence from the Cancer STicks!
Nope its not for the Pope..LOLx

jus that
some Dreams R in Progress...
ACtually to think of it, i shul be quitting long ago
As puffing 2 sticks per day is as good as not indulging in it!

So folks, if u see me smoking..
yeah if u see me smoking...
(if only keeping promises are as easy as Eating Chocs..)
I myself dunno wat to saY!

but i've made up my mind!

Somebody Pass me the NicPatch pls...

heLlos

2005-03-31T14:49:00.000+08:00

Its rainin..
all my plans are spoilt!

for the Past few days, interest in Soccer is totally lost!
I'm not in the Mood in workin to bring it back
cant be bothered.

need a motivation...
maybe find a full time job!

Get into the World with jus a Diploma if i cant get into the Local U,
as foreign Unis means $$$.
A Last resort for me
Hey I'm lost lor...

2005-03-28T15:11:00.000+08:00

Stop it Nithya...
Stop bumming at home hopelessly & Do nothin
LAziness is scaling high & Wild for u!

The "guru" predicts it will happen...
If yes, then Wait...
"Guru" predicts I'll get it...
If yes then REcieve it...

Stop Brooding,,,

Ok i miss Work!
Results are coming up soon.,,
Cross MY FINGERS!
I'm banking on U GOD!!!

2005-03-26T02:50:00.000+08:00

Down the Memory lane...
at my Workstation...

2005-03-26T01:44:00.000+08:00

Baby When I heard U
Since the Last Time I Knew
We Were Meant TO Be as ONE

Everything Went From Wrong to Right
The Stars CAme Out Filling all the Sky
the Music U played Grooved my mind

It Was love...my blinding LOVE

2005-03-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

I've been aboveboard, actual, artless,
bona fide,
candid,
dead level, dear, devout,
earnest,
faithful, forthright, frank,
genuine, guileless,
heartfelt, honest,
meant, n
atural, no fooling, no-nonsense,
open, outspoken,
plain, pretensionless,
real, regular, righteous,
saint, serious, square, sure enough,
true, true blue, trustworthy, twenty-four carat,
unaffected, undesigning, undissembled, unfeigned, unpretentious, up front,
wholehearted

Thesaurus for SINCERE

All In All, YES,Haha--> I'm Sincere as ALWAYS!!!
Crazy it may seem, but the Above said is the Da Answer for Blog article MAR 17.

Thats a Long MIA

2005-03-24T11:05:00.000+08:00

Goodness, I shul say I misuse my bloggin sessions
All the while I've only been updating on the Sad happenings, hardly penning down good moments.

Maybe the last 1 week has been too good, that I've hardly enuf time to spare their details.

Fri 18th Mar
End of my attachment, It was a day, where I believe many of my Pals have been marking.

Maybe I'm one of em untill 10th Mar. Ever since then, I was held by this THought of me wantin to stay on with this Company. I've been liking wat i've been doing, or better said, I begin to like wat my Department is all abt.

The Company & the Peeps there have been such a pleasure to work with...But too bad, most of the PRofessionals there are University Grads, & me a Diploma. Being an Diploma Intern in this firm is already a Big Deal by itself. So the moral of the Story is
"Hey u People, Degree aint Jus A Paper, Its Cert for Survival among the BIG GUNS."

<<>>

Sat 19th Mar
Rock climbing was on my agenda...
Not with some sporty Trained Folks but with a bunch of Conservative Malays...
The Tudun Sort. & Goodness, they are as sporty as any1 else. I mean Sporty with Capital S.

Tot it would be easy, but na, had a difficult time scaling high....

Caught up wit this Rock Climbing Instructor...Cute isnt the word,,,Maybe Dashing...

Sun 20th Mar

Just One Word.
Complacent.

2005-03-17T23:38:00.000+08:00

Life's Strange...
Am i in the retribution state..i mean on the recieving end
being punished for my ugly tots.

Cant take certain issues that happend today
which made me to send a msg
Completely outta my Mind.

I'm talking abt Ms R...
Didnt meant Ms R to be Still Angry...
ok, I'm responsible since ya Kid didnt do well...
Well, not fully till i personally see how she lost her marks...
as its not surprising for her to had fared badly as she's a Regular committin lotsa careless mistakes.

only i know, how much i had sacrificed back then for this tuition
well if thats aint SincErE, then let this way to be the answer..
if i have been sincere,
the situation is ought to change for the BettEr...

Gimme a chance i'll prove again, that I'm serious abt tuition...
if not,then I'll jus take its as
Evrthng happens for a reason, (remember Nithya??), u even recieved a happy Reply for this sms that u've sent, quite long ago.

no point brooding.
think i'm indeed paying for wat i had cultured in my mind.

Maybe one day I'll laugh when i read this BloG, thinking y have i been so childish, wierdish, taking things so serious...& i dun think that day is very far...
But seriously, coming across this TuitioN assignment has made me see lotsa things in life...
Responsibility, feminism(maybe a lil), Teaching wit CarE, smart Kids.
Well all these seemed to be something special for the past 1 yr. but now...hmm, all gone to waste... Dumped!!! jus like that...

2005-03-13T09:38:00.000+08:00

Friday's EMbracing Was Great...
Didnt Know all the 5 Religions have the Same COnCepT, same Ideology, Belief...
LEarnt lots of stuff
Enlightened or noT?
Its neither a choice nor a Gift
iTs something I've to work hard For

But Sat Sucked...
Again, the Sickening immortal Habit of Mine made me Fall short.When Will i Ever LEarn???

But As the Day matured, it went on fine.
Thanx for the Comments on my new Fone guys...Fatin, Cindy & Panini...
Hey Cikgu, its a Cool fone Ok,jus that its lacks colour in Night Shots.
& Ms ahemm...pls, my fone's PICS are not "LEgenD" looking...
its jus the Browny backGrnd that makes it look Legend..

Cant believe I watched the Same movie Twice in this Week.
Wat happened to MILLIOn $ BABY? NoT gg to misS it.

OK...tday's The ACTION SOME ARE waiting FOR...
Sporting vs Bishan Arsenal
As usual, there are many haters for my team..

They jus wanna Beat US.
Competition is Good & We love IT!

Hmm...dunno if given the Chance I can play well..
LAst week was sucky, not gg to let it slip in mind again this time round.

2005-03-11T09:48:00.000+08:00

Hey..much awaited day...
a Day equiped wit Solutions for a Desperate Soul
Cant wait any longer for the Clock to ring at 6...

& Well Ms R, finally thanx for replyin my MSG.

Oh Dear Ruku,U are getting married...
Look at the "glow" in U
Lucky for u, settling down finally...
All my wishes to u!

2005-03-08T13:10:00.000+08:00

Its International Women's Day...
My Brother's B'Day too..
Hey Bro, need not worry, this day was marked way aft u were born...
A yr ago, I received a Greetin from A Sweet Person who had a ,unfortunatly now on the contra, lasting impact on me...
Ok lets not talk abt it

Today is the day women are supposed to celebrate how far they have come socially, economically and politically. If you're counting dates, it's also three days after Martha Stewart, was released from prison for some insider trading, a well known figure from THE Apprentice.

Its also a few days after where the Pakistani Court ruled out Death Sentence for some 6 Bas****s for gang-raping a Girl, who thought will be the way to punish her Brother...

At home, women bosses are considered to be the most Bitchy, & rated worse compared to men...
Look at all the Maid abuse, Mostly its the Women who are the culprits.. as for me I'll not
forget abt some's unForgiving attitude, which they are oft found to be at great distance when it comes to Forgive & Forget...
& to mention their Eccentricity too...

But Lets not forget that Its Women who bore us & nutured us. Trace it back & men can argue it for the Sickening Forbidden Fruit Incident. err..isnt the satan male??

& the Punishment for it? Endure pains from the age of Puberty till We MenoP.
& The men, jus An Adam Apple & enjoy sexual prime till the age 60..

In this world the reality is, Women are screwed in the Man's World. Thats wat makes the world interesting, albeit painful when we too wanna climb up the Corporate LAdder, wear pants better than the Man & not to have tat subservient attitude of the Old days...

But we have to swallow this Quiet, Sleep Arousing Fact that

Quote of Day**Women shall always be Women & men are always Men, never the Twain shall Each Cross...**
special thanks to B.T

2005-03-07T09:54:00.000+08:00

Its a Mon...
Monday, means to me as the Sum up of all miseries for past days!

Pms on the way I guess..
or Surrender is setting its sight on me.

Have to Tell myself not to get too Bothered.
Maybe I'm just too Free.

Forget abt the Tuition Matter. for OGK how distraught I was & shunned for a Petty Matter.
All i can say is, "Well Ms R, if u r interested gimme a buzz or else Jus Buzz off..."
Pls understand that Problems dun jus happen to u.
I too can have Probs..

& hey...U r the one to have disappointed me...
jus 1 petty mistake, & then been dissed off like this...

Jus gotta tell things are gg to get better....

Allow me to say this
If there's a Problem too much to handle & life seems a Misery.
Remember, God's Smiling at U,
seeing How the Hell U r Gonna Tolerate.
& soon Proposes the Heaven U Deserve.

HE gives it All to the Evil,only to let neglect him in the End...
But test the Good soul, just to be by His Side in the End...

2005-03-01T13:54:00.000+08:00

Ok Cool...

Things are swayin in an Aweful Manner

1st--->Tuition
Every Wkends I always find myself a victim to my own Bad Habit
Impunctuality That is.
But last week,Seriously I tried to be early, Told my self repeatedly that I wont be Late...
In the End, I'm Just Sorry for myself.
But even then Ms DL forgived me for that...

Well..yest was an Incident where she seemed to have enuff of me
Things are seemingly coming to an Abrupt End...
I may have to Stop tutoring her Kids...
A year ago, her trust on my teaching was concreting
but now, all reduced to Rubbles for other Petty Reasons(seriously it's nothin to do wit my teaching), just for my yestdy's Mishap of not answerin her calls...
Well I shall Be responsible if ya kid dun do well for her Paper.

I cant believe that I've to leave them like with such a sour feeling...
I'm really sorry Ms R, I didnt mean for wat happened yest... Y would I?
I know u are angry & disappointed wit me...Really Sorry..
The Harder we grip Our Fist to hold the Sand, The Least is All Thats Left...

2nd Fucking incident---> Special Person

Oh god! U r one I've been waiting for all these While
But now the World Proves u are'n worth Waiting for, Let alone living For/With u...
All those who had jibed of u...
U've proven those words tat I wished wasnt True, is AFTERALL TRUE...

*If U go in search for Honey, U are expected to be Stung By Bees
*Courtesy of Ms Karma

I realised Dreams are worth Counting them to be the Truth...
My Dreams of my own F&B has miraculously occured...
So lets hope that the Yest's dream of mine will come TRUE!!!

2005-02-21T11:31:00.000+08:00

What The F is gg on wit Martina...

Ok she is my IDOl of Idol long long be4. But in Flings she's Thumbs Down. yucks she aint got Taste Or maybe Sol has something to Wonder abt!

Straits Times

21st Feb 2005

Hingis admits she likes Sol

LONDON - THEY both have had colourful love lives. Now, surprisingly, Sol Campbell and Martina Hingis are an item.
The unlikely romance was confirmed by the Swiss former world No 1 tennis player earlier this month.
She told Schweizer Illustrierte magazine: 'I like Sol a lot.
'We see each other whenever possible, but he has many matches and I have my appointments as well.
'It is not easy for us both.'

But, asked if the England and Arsenal defender could be described as her 'new love', the 24-year-old replied: 'That's too strong a word.'
The pair were apparently introduced by Campbell's former Tottenham team-mate Ramon Vega at an adidas publicity launch in October. Both he and Hingis are sponsored by adidas, reported BBC Online.
Since then, they are said to have enjoyed a few dinner dates, before attending the launch of the United Nations 'Year of Sport' initiative in December.

Friends said the pair are desperate to see more of each other. Campbell's pals have admitted he has 'really fallen' for the tennis star, reported The Mirror.
The liaison followed a turbulent period in the Englishman's private life.
Last year, he was dating interior designer Kelly Hoppen but they split up in September after 10 months together.
Weeks later, the 30-year-old was photographed outside the home of pop singer Dido.
The pair ended their relationship last December. Campbell had already met Hingis then.

Hingis had also just split from her long-term partner, Swiss sports entrepreneur and restaurateur Stefan Egger.
At 16, she was the youngest player to reach No 1 in the rankings.
She won five Grand Slam singles titles until ankle injuries forced a two-year break.
She returned to competition in Thailand last month, but lost in the first round.

2005-02-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

Confused...
Depressed...& there's one person whom I can turn to...

"Miss Karma". & her Real Name rhymes wit it too...

one who believes that we are born as part of the Karma's Cycle.
TO Reap What We Sow...

Met her on V-Day with a special Person.
& we've somethin in Common.
Even Ms Karma thinks so!

Exactly a yr ago I was Hooked to a LOng one-sided affair
& its none other than Ms D.L
She too uttered Karma for every mishaps that occured in her life.
But she couldnt find time to unleash its true Meaning.
Maybe Cos she was that Self-Centred person washing her Dirty Linens in Public or simply attracting Attention in her own Sense, Her Real identity which I came to know.

But Ms Karma is fortunately DifferEnt
An Epitome to the World of Happenings with reasons...

After a lil usual Sunday session wit Cikgu, called Ms Karma.
for a Shoulder to Cry on
I didnt need to spare any details what's going on wit me
to this Unstrange Spiritual Lady...

Soul Searching was the answer for me on the Other side of the Line.

2005-02-18T12:30:00.001+08:00

k cool...
I jus cant get my job done esp when its assigned by this Knowledge officer(k.o).
How i wish she can be systematic, in giving instructions.
So that I can aniticipate problems/difficulties
& therefore reduce my fonecalls to clear queries...

How i wish she's like my Assoc Director...a.k.a my In charge.
She's damn good in giving instructions,prob Solving & of course she has good
Communication Skill.
& this (k.o) lady has a serious Prob in it...SHe LackS most of em

& That explains their "Pole-length difference" in position @ the Dept.

Moral of the Story...
Na... cant be bothered!

2005-02-14T21:45:00.000+08:00

Y is all against me?
& that all is Just a Single person who is Ought to be the One & Only In Life

Year 2005 is A Wonderful Year...

Too much good in it
I'm sayin this with a Painful Sarcasm

I dunno wat is True & wat is not
Maybe all are hidden just beneath the Surface...
Maybe some things shuld have been left unsearched
But then Fate victors all
Since Its Best Friend is Eternity
It will always haunt us for Life

Today Is Valentine's Day...
I've seen Heart Soothers & Heart Breakers all within 2hours
They were those
Who were in The Opposite side of the Table 20 years Ago

Things left unearth are now abt to Erupt
Only He knows for Who I am...
What I am...
& Where I am

Lord please dun lemme hear anythin Harsh...
Keep me sane with all these Insane People...
For their foolishness & harshness dun punish Them ...
For they thy commit their Sins in some Situation...

Be With me at all Cost...
Like my Own...

Love Nty

2005-02-07T18:03:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey...
k Admit it...this happy Update is kinda lapsed one.

Alas, Friday our Last MAtch..we Won

Miss Vain (Ya la its me...) scored...

think if only the mates knew y i was late
they WOULD HAVE KILLED ME...

Rite?

Cos I was in the Salon Colourin my hair
Reached late for the Pre-Match Briefing, I mean very Late...
IF only it was our Bern, Me a Dead meat...or roasted Bak Kwa.(Oooh Bak Kwa)

Well Me didnt kick off...
Me so much wanting to play, u know ...ask Nipples...
I was so Breastless...oops restless I mean...

Me Sub IZ...the Gal who wears half of my Jersey no. 3.
No, no!!! Me no fail Maths...
Half of 8 vertically is 3 ma!!!'

Then Ref blew Pe Pee PEEE...
Later me scream During Cheer
2nd Half started...

MunAh the gal (unfortunately) who loves the Ground so much as usual went Blonk...

Ref awarded Free KIck...
Me quickly went to Spot, asked Pam(in fact I begged Her) I wanted to Take...

She said, "Better Score huh!!!"

Ref asked "whistle or dun want"
Me think of Theiry Henry & said No "I dun want."

Then later saw the SMU gals so near...
Me went Gabrah...
"Walao How to score like that... sure hit their inflated Boobs."

Then I said to Ref..."Can I have the Whistle blown?"...
He said,"Ok, wait for my whistle...then u can kick."

I went few steps behind...
Saw the Goalpost & even caught a GLimpse of the Indian Guys&Gals stopped their Captain Ball Game& looking at me with Excitement...

Told myself Cannot Waste it...
Must DO IT !!! at least for the tanned tones i inherited frm trngs.

PEEEE... whislte blown
Ok la...dun wanna Brag, I scored...

Maybe its NP
thats y i happy (hey it rhymes)

if EB dun think like this...

Cos the HAppiness, SMiles OF JOy i saw in the NPFC gals is beyond WORDS...
THank YOu All...for being so dedicated towards the Tourney...

Do our School Pride by outclassin our Opponents in Next Yr IVP...

2005-02-01T14:06:00.000+08:00

just read cindy's Blog...
Ya...wats written there's quite true...
WE Can Never Win
If we HArdLy Train...

Well let this be an experience for all of us out there...

Soccer is somehow Meant for the Dominating Sex...
If we Gals wanna dominate, then better BE DEDICATED to it!!!

2005-02-01T11:39:00.000+08:00

4 matches had passed with a whiz...wit only 0 point & a goal to linger with.

Many cite,"wow NP is fielding some good players,so it will give a good fight for
the IVP opponents..."

Is it True? Well I Guess not.

Hmm wat can i say...
Yes, yest was a match, is one where a loss is inevitable

Its a sad one, a very sad & disappointin one for Miss T.P.Queen.
Its her last match...a final one zeroin to a Loss.

Wanted to have a Good Farewell Tribute for her...
Sometimes when things are not gg well,There's no one but to blame myself .
I wont say NP sux...but we lack the Elements of a Team-Play.

But I sucked to the Core too...
Hardly having Trainings, match fitness down the Hill, legs are losing the Speed Factor,thus easily losing possesion.

Most importantly,it was yest when i realised, I'm not playin MY Position. Midfield is not meant for me. Midfield department needs each others support.

Its not easy, when the opponts are breathing down your neck & me having no support to release the Ball. Even even when I do, it ends to be a failure...

But then again, who can i Blame when my fightin spirit is totally down at times,plus my "yet to recover Cold" is still there to push me to the Lowest.

Ya,I admit it. Its not the same me, playing! Ok Cikgu! stop muttering, I know its a 11 man Game but I somehow much wanna make my presence useful...

For the NYP filthy duds,whose encounter is still haunting, wait for the Big Gals to Flog U up there & there in the Challenge Cup.

Get ya ears prepared for the defeaning sarcastic laughs, mockery & insults from some of the AVENGING lots from Bishan Arsenal & Sporting Westlake. For those who dunno, NYP will be known as Commonwealth Palace in Challenge Cup

I dun care whether I'm playing or warming the Bench or at the stands...I just want to see them cringing.

It was just exactly a year ago.

NP was at its Best.

The memories are still Fresh.

Mel an All out Fighter, With Shida Our Captain Marvel.

We won all our matches except the ITE's.

But the Hopes were still there.

Thats the Best team NP has ever Fielded.

& its also the Best Prize any Poly have achieved...

If not Wrong, NP was the first Poly to ACHIeVe a Silver Medal in the IVP circuit..

An event producing A Wholesome Pride for NPFC 2004.

Lastly,

And also a new term for "tyco goals" was coined...

"CHEEKY LOB!"

MOMMY u are BACK!!!

2005-01-31T13:25:00.000+08:00

Floating in DreamLand..

Decades swam by...

Thinkin I'll never See U..

Groped in by Fate...

Falling back in ya Arms...

Witnessing ya Silent Prayers Answered...

That in Return it

Gave me a New Lease of Life...

You have been near me all this while ...

While i've been searching High & Low for u...

What Can I say...

God is Crazy...

did u hear my Cries?

I suppose its me who has to hear Yours

I heard it Dear...

I heard it...

Indeed U did miss me...

Allow me to stay Aloof to all those stories heard

But now Lemme hear your LifeStory

From Your Heart...

stories.. of all these Years

Not thru ya Tears

Which I Am Dying to Hear...

My Beloved

_ _ _ _ _ _

Sick

2005-01-27T18:00:00.000+08:00

Days as usual not good.

If only I had my way,will be out of this country,somewhere rather peaceful having an Orgasmistic Holiday

at the F****ng moment

Body's down with virus flu....
Mind filled with Anxiety of tmr match...
Spirit down as my low moral soaring high after being thrashed by NYP

Sorry to say,,,Only God can save NGEE ANN.

2005-01-20T15:25:00.000+08:00

The F****ng word to coin yest match is HelpLess of HOPELESS..
Its one of the Worse days I've ever Faced...

There were likes of Losing 10-0, 7-1, as a school Team...But still at the end of the day, I knew i've put in effort! But that was when i had very less tactical knowledge & was rather "unburdened" with high Hopes...

But yest, its all diff! I hate it when i cant even stand on my feet, not being able to fight for the BAll! Even be4 the Match, i cant even Sprint! All thanx to my Fucking intimidated fear, lack of TRAINING Sessions & the Bloody spicy Lunch i Had!!! A self inflicted misery

In Fact many knew NTU is a team where we can earn some points... but then A lost is wat least expected in any1's mind. Hey even the NTU team knew that!

It has been 20 hours since yest's Final Whistle... Many found that the 2-0 scoreline is a sad story that could have been avoided...Or for some incl me its like "If only she had dived, we'll be SAved" think again

Why not like this--> If only we had our Basics there, if only we had more competitive level experiences, if only the 4 experienced players were at their best, if only we had the "never say die" attitude like the Previous IVP team, If only our Midfield can tore their sickly "bus" like defence, IF ONLY I had ATTACKed!

If only...???

But then once again, its a Team Work...Its not a one-man show, not Playstation's FIFA etc.
If the 4 lads (P,R,N,M) can call the Shots...we'll once again jump high Pumping our Fists... To Bring on the satisfaction smile in M.Y. for all the Optimistic thoughts she's been havin on us for past 1month...

Well there are 4 more matches to go!
One thing FOr Sure..I know, that one way or another its all on me! & I'll never Let THis Team Down. History Shall Never Repeat...only The Glory days.

All of Sudden, IVP means something more TO ME!

HOPE its the same for U guys who've played in the league tourneys etc....

C'Mon NPFC, ITS ALL IN US NOW...

ITS DO or DIE for the Remaining 4 MATCHES

2004-12-23T09:11:00.000+08:00

Finally the Truth is out...to distraught to speak & think abt it...

But of Cos I've achieved Clear state of Mind

Mind has been made clear thru the fone conversation..

It will be rude shock if she comes to know...so therfore let this feeling of mine be an One-Sided..

I'm not gonna speak or elaborate on wat the conversation is about...but

It Confirmed the END OF THE FAnTasY & DreaM RIDE!!!

GoodBye...

Time to get PRAGMATIC & PROFESSIONAL!!!

2004-12-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

Today Went back to work after 2 days off..

actually this month in total I'll be having 8 days off...
4 days MC which was last week & the rest given freely by the Company...
then the next month or so, there is offs for Chinese New Yr...
hmmm...looks like my batch got the correct timing for attachment...

Suddenly...

G J started to miss me,when G J woke up...
*pondering* actually ya lor... G J does miss me! COs i miss GJ too!!!

2004-12-21T10:24:00.000+08:00

The greatest distance in this World is

NEITHER the sky Nor The Earth,

Nor the North Pole & South Pole

not even the Heaven & Hell...

BUT IT is when I am Standing Infront of U & I Cant ...

Say I'm in Love With U...

2004-12-18T19:28:00.000+08:00

Feel Humiliated

Soccer wasnt Good

as planned Yesterday...

must have Disappointed Mel & Team

Poor Performance...
Gotta do homework for that now

Exhausted...
Was Xcited in the Beginnin of the Day

but End up Lethargic...

Bored at home...

Sent me A soul Mate Soon...

Hey MS D...
MIA again or jus captured!

Very Very BAD DAY...

=-=-=-=-=-=-=

& then...

~~~~I DREAM~~~~

That I Wanna hit the Beach whilst the

World is soundly sleeping

Witness the Sun Rise

first hand

Whip an own version of

"ala Carte "

picnic basket

& savour wit u!

To Share a novel

engage in Sweet Disputes...

but then How can one define the dream

...Does it begin every time we close our eyes?

Or does it begin every time we open them?

Is watching the sun rise and set in the same day just a dream?

Is walking along the beach on a warm Sunday Evening just a dream?

Is lying in a field of green grass smelling the scent of the flowers just a dream?

Is spending an evening wit you with Clear mind A dream?

Is staring up at the moon from my Window in the still of the night just a dream?

Are those long walks around your neighborhood just a dream?

Or are all those times you cried and cried until it hurt just a dream?

Is waking up at 2 p.m. on Saturday just a dream?
Or going to bed at 2 a.m. on Sunday just a dream?

Are all those deep conversations you had with me is just a dream?

Is the past just a dream, Is the future just a dream?

Maybe life is just one unforgettable dream...

2004-12-17T13:57:00.000+08:00

Burpppp.... the Company jus had their mini-Christmas Lunch...

Lunch was all continental style..wit pasta,lasagne, ceasar, wine, etc...
haha & I got a Gift set
A cool blue some shower gel set & aroma burning set,with joss sticks & oil etc(some aroma & essential oil thingy)

haha...in fact mine was quite big!!! It was from a lady of Valuation Dept...& my In-Charge cum ex-Lect, who knows the "giftor", is all smiles when i asked who could that be from..

Actually Its more of a Party
All the staffs, few weeks ago had to pick a name & get em a gift on this day!

I got this cute looking Manually Clickin Calendar from Elva's (in Raffles City Shppin Ctr), for this young cute Aussie,who's an Associate Director of Corporate Services! Man he's a cute,friendly & a typical YUPPIE.Named Rimon Ambarchi

Haha but he's married!
Sadly..he was on MC,today, wont be able to recieve my gift! & Miss his reaction!

Quite disappointing!!!

Then there i saw some getting gifts like Jazz CDs, Name Card holders,chocolates, Espirit Towel Sets...

Hey hey
Dun be fooled that I'm in a joyous mood!!!

Well its not all merry for me though..Its quite hard to mingle with these ppl...so after the small gathering, i jus took my food & came to my desk.

Hmm need to make frens wit ma colleagues...but then, its quite hard, Cos wat am i going to speak to em abt; the New upcoming project, how much is the bonus this time, or gossip abt some HK artistes...

Naa...cannot lei!!!

Aargh...at times i jus miss my school, maybe its my frens...

Since coming for attachment, I've learnt to lunch on my own, something which i found it to be wierd!
Well I'm not alone! some of my colleagues who also lunch alone!

So for many occasions i'll jus get loads of fruits & pie... Ya,to date i've eaten 10 lunches of just fruits... A Monkey's Diet & am proud of it!!!

2004-12-17T10:43:00.000+08:00

Clippings from the Berita Harian Dec 17 04....
Gal u make US Proud!!!
U GO GAL!!!

KEJOHANAN SILAT SEDUNIASEMANGAT BERJUANG TAK PERNAH PADAM
Walau pernah digantung Zuhrah kejar impian hingga kini di ambang jadi juara dunia
OlehYusoff A.rahman
BELIAU pernah dipecat oleh perguruannya, Seligi Tunggal Angkatan.
Beliau juga pernah digantung dua tahun dari Mei 2001 hingga Mei 2003 oleh Persekutuan Silat Singapura (Persisi).
Dalam tempoh penggantungan, beliau kembali beraksi kepada sukan pilihan keduanya, bola sepak. Bahkan, beliau menyarung jersi pasukan Bishan Arsenal dalam Liga Wanita Persatuan Bola Sepak Singapura (FAS).
Tetapi, jiwanya tidak boleh dipisahkan daripada silat. Sebab, cita-citanya dalam silat adalah besar.
Lusa, Zuhrah Mohamed Sabri, guru sambilan Sekolah Rendah Teck Whye, berpeluang memenuhi impiannya itu.
Zuhrah adalah pesilat kedua negara yang melayakkan diri ke pertandingan akhir Kejohanan Silat Sedunia di Dewan Sukan Bedok setelah menangkis cabaran Zainab Ganiyu-Dada dari United Kingdom 5-0 dalam Kelas Terbuka Wanita kelmarin.
Seorang lulusan politeknik dalam jurusan Elektronik Komputer dan kejuruteraan Telekomuka si, Zuhrah ingin melupakan catatan pahit dalam hidup itu.
'Saya lebih mengambil sikap buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih. Matlamat saya ialah terus maju dalam silat. Walaupun digantung, saya juga kerap mengikuti latihan dengan perguruan baru saya.
'Kini, oleh kerana saya telah pun melayakkan diri ke pertandingan akhir, saya akan berusaha melakukan terdaya mungkin. Siapa yang tidak ingin menjadi juara dunia,' katanya merujuk kepada pertemuannya dengan Pham Thi Hue dari Vietnam.
Beberapa bulan sebelum Sukan SEA Kuala Lumpur 2001, Zuhrah dipecat Seligi Tunggal Angkatan, kerana maklum balas yang diberi kepada Pengarah Teknikal, Sheik Alauddin Yacoob, semasa kejohanan di Filipina telah membuat gurunya, Ramli Awi tersinggung.
Akibatnya, Zuhrah dipecat dan gara-gara tidak bernaung dengan sebarang perguruan, pesilat itu telah terlepas peluang mewakili negara dalam Sukan SEA Kuala Lumpur.
Keputusannya menyertai Perguruan Harimau menyebabkan Zuhrah digantung dua tahun kerana ia dikatakan melanggar peraturan Persisi.
'Saya tidak mahu memikirkan perkara lalu. Saya berpendapat ia lebih berpunca daripada salah faham. Sebagai pesilat, saya menghormati setiap guru,' tambah Zuhrah.
Setelah tamat penggantungan itu, Zuhrah kembali berlatih dan kini berada di ambang menjadi juara dunia.
Tragedi pemecatan dan hukuman gantung tidak pernah membantutkan langkah perjuangannya.

2004-12-15T14:28:00.000+08:00

Happy BirthdaY SAV...
a.k.a my Boyfriend of EB!!!

Yest,attended Dear Sav's Chalet B'Day Party! Hmm yeah did had a good time.
But have to admit that yest was indeed a"TESTING DAY" for me!

Yeah, gotta resist some temptation frm "seductive vodka, beers, seafood" after gg thru the turmoil..on Mon!

oh ya... it was indeed a 'testing' day for my NOSE & EYES... My poor lil features..
After witnessing a few things in the Train..i've gotta scream this
" _ _ _ E _ _ ,u are a disgusting piglet!!!!"

I shan't say who's that, but she really tortured my vision & sense of smell lor!!!

& whoever say that gals get sexy & horny when they are drunk, u shul have boarded that train, & u've gotta reverse ya thoughts on ya aphrosodiac researches!

All the chunky pink sausages, laced wit some chicken wings, strips of Satay & of course all of em marinated with Alcohol & Ribena! It was a mini BBQ,in the train, all cooked in digestive juices & whipped by our Drunken Chef!!!

If thats a feast for the eyes means how abt some free flowing "F*R*S"

Poor Melisa...
But then it was still fun afterall... & gained some Experience..
HAHAHA..

spastic colon

2004-12-15T13:34:00.000+08:00

Ok...after some researches... & recalling wat the Doc said,,,its Spastic Colistis...Yes,i remember its Colistis. He mentioned something like that!!! & ya ya, also Spastic...

Ouch of all Spastic???
*flashback*
"spastic", that word reminds me of my early days in NPFC, where Han uses it to describe the action of those who jump like 'mechanical pencil'or look dumbo when heading for the Ball! & of cos I wasn't spared too! She used it once on me when i was doing this balancing drill,which Mike Wong taught us, that look like a 'dance'.

Its quite irritating when they said i resemble some Bhangra move. YAAH! Not only tat, watever move i did, its Always Bhangra lor!!! Tat sux man ....

*flashback over*

Otherwise known as Irritable bowel syndrome (spastic colon)
or functional or nervous diarrhoea, colon or vegetative neurosis, or mucous colitis; main symptoms are Constipation and Diarrhoea, occasional cramping pains in lower abdomen, and sometimes severe pain on defecating. Muscular contraction in the colon or ileum is uncoordinated and spasmodic, though not for any reason which can be detected by X-rays or endoscopy; causes are as likely to be psychological - family, marital, or work problems, cancer Phobia, in fact Stress in general - as dietary.
Twice as many women are affected as men.

Here comes the Worse part...

There is no cure for IBS, which is actually a brain-gut dysfunction, but there are many very effective ways of controlling and even eliminating Irritable Bowel Syndrome symptoms. If stress is the problem, try relaxation techniques. Try increasing fluid, stopping smoking, reducing beer and red wine, cutting down chewing gum, eating regularly and increasing exercise. If a particular food is suspect, eliminate it from your diet for 4 days, then reintroduce it and see if problems recur.

GOt this useful yet not helping me in anyway info from the websites...as this is self diagnosed, I'm crossin my fingers,as the Doc is to have the Final Say when i next visit him!

Warning to all gals of age 20-30... as this is common among this group! & trust me, ya menses or gastric cramp is pea sized compared to this! Its severe, or maybe I'll rather say, it depends on individual...

Moral of the Story: Having some,ahemm, ABS,doesnt mean that "all's well inside afterall" (ok ok...thats tongue in cheek I know!!!)

Race against the God's Decision

2004-12-14T13:54:00.000+08:00

AM I Living against HIS Will???

What's happening to me?
I believe that I'm always in the Pink of Health, except that I'd engage in some "Cancer" sticks.
But thats like in a minimal amount, jus sticking to 1-3 stick per day...
So what's happening to me now!

Well, yesterday, A Monday, was like any other day. Going to work, planning on wat to accomplish! Braced myself from the Sleepy mood as i spent the night watching the Arsenal-Chelsea match.

Logged on to my com. Then as the clock struck to 10odd am, was feeling this tinge of pain. God not again,thinking to myself. It was this pain,just at the side of my abs! I had went thru this twice before. Ignored it for some muscle twist!

But not this time...the pain was growing & growing, told my colleague,gotta rush to see doc. Yeah,w/out fail went to the Bt Merah Polyclinic...

At the clinic,shit, i was the 20th person to get myself registered. Told the receptionist, "Look,i jus wanna see the Doc" & yeah, she allowed me as an Emergency Case. Saw the Doc, he sent me to the Nursing room. Seeing me tumbling,he soon administered this Painkiller Jab. If any1 see me how i was struggling in the pain, she/he'll CRY for SURE!!!

The jab was like extinguishing massive blaze of fire wit jus a lil drop of water.. Goodness, the pain never seemed to Subside! The nurse called my Bro.

The Doc felt helpless &referred me to an Hospital, but man, I jus cant stand,walk & I could was jus lie down
& so How am i to walk???
It was terrible! Dunno wat the FUCK IS GG ON!!! So, no choice, he asked for the AMBULANCE!

Was brought to the Hospital. Soon given an even stronger Painkiller jab, to kill off the pain! But that took effect after 2hrs. Till then, I Was still screaming, Moaning, fidgettin be4 dozing off! Yikes...
But surprisingly, u know wat...NOT A single Drop of Tear was shed...

The pain was too Shitty, was in Too much Pain to CRY
The jab started to work & soon dozed off

...then i woke up...

Saw my Bro & Mom...was asking em, eh How come SGH looked so small huh...
They looked at me stunned?
Bro: Hello my dear, u are at Alexandra Hospital!
Me: WAT!!!

Then the Doc came... he held his report by the Hand... his look made me sense that, I'm living the last few days of my life...
haha no no...that wasnt!

since the beginning, i suspected it was some Kidney Problem...
Goodness, yes it is..
But then its not any kidney failure or infection

Jus that I have this vein that connects the Kidney to my blood stream acts SPASTIC at times...
All of a sudden it palpitate or move uncontrollably! & that causes me pain!

Even the Doc cant explain the Cause of it, jus gave me a Specialist appt.

I just wish that its some kidney stones, so that i can have it removed Once & For aLL!

Was Given some Painkillers &MC till today,be4 heading home!
Even while typing this journal,there's still a slight pain in my back!

No choice,have to resort to some Painkillers now!

Thats all...
Praying that for once This SHULDNT HAPPEN ANYMORE or to ANYONE!!!

(in fact didnt wanna write this, but isnt a journal meant to look back & remember wat Happened TODAY, so Y not blog it!)

2004-12-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

DEar little Blog...

When i first started to have an Affair wit u..It was all Roses...

Pouring out to u my DAily life happenings...

Glorifying u with some pics, well at least not many...

Going on long hour dates with u by colouring u, putting celebrity pics, deciding on the font color
& Not to mention, those hassles i faced, which is the Sickening moment of making u get started..

seek for some consultations on how to create u, the hyperlink & learnt lots on wat to put on the TEMPLATE
...
Wonder where are all that EXcitement is now... THE BUBBLE Burst...

looks like a repeat Telecast of my Real Life Relationships...
U See my dear Blog,,,the problem with me is... My Excitement Die So Fast...
Its in My Nature i guess

& Its proven!!!

maybe the Excitement might spring back...if my Tagboard is spammed with messages...

WHAT DO U THINK READERS???.....

help

2004-12-04T14:35:00.000+08:00

Help somebody call the Flu Brigade...

oh no..Think my small office research room is infected with bacteria..

for the past 1 week, i have shifted to my In charge's desk,as she has gone for a long Sick & holiday leave...

First she was ill, then the Biz Svc guy,then this male research analyst, then the Knowlege officer, & now ME!!!

Bloody hell,the place is spooked with flu...Or the Entire CBD area is congested with Virus!

Y is this happening...I have just changed my daily diet to 2/3 vegetarian stuff! Shuldnt i be better of???
Oh no!!! I really hate it...My weekend plans are gone! Gone for the BAD!!!

MAybe I'm in the REtribution stage! Being retributed for eating BEEF twice!
Some may say crap! But believe it or NOT , whenever i eat Beef,somethin very very bad happens!

At least my contradiction is better...

Had this Aunt. SHe told me that Whenever she eats Beef, the Chicken pokes her Eye, in her Dream... Wait a minute. Is the Chick feeling devasted that she choosed beef over chicken!!!
Or maybe they were good buddies in some Uncle Joe's Farm?

Ok..body's aching! feel horrible,having not falling ill for ages! & this is intolerable!

2004-11-25T01:17:00.000+08:00

k ok...nothin special today...but was bad
Went to work quite late.
then went for trng.

I dunno wats happening

having no1 at sight,
feel single & useless

At work...
whenever i see the online articles of the new released condo units,
i just dream of having a house there of mine. One of them is the ICON. Wonder how it feels
to stay in such a house. Its fully I.T equipped. & The prestige? needless to say..
But then come to think about it, I'll rather live in simple plc, say Novena . Not so CBD area, Save the money & go traveling Or get tat Mini cooper & enjoy ma life wit my love one.

Y buy a fancy hse wit all the swimming pools,sauna, etc & get sian after a while.
somemore wont get to use them everyday..
Ok ok, this was wat my colleagues were saying.

Maybe even if i want a classy house, I'll rather go for the view. So ICON is not bad after all.
I can see all the sunrise & sunset(think so) & have a perfect morning...
---------------------""-------------

Alas

2004-11-22T14:05:00.000+08:00

At Last...
Haha...ok i dun care if any1 is gonna Say, I'm just too Boastful or watever...

My tuition Kid got the 1St in her class... & Her younger Sister, amazingly did better than expected...
Hahaha...Its a joy something much better than their "mother"...
A teacher's Joy...

Ok la, at last now the Mother is relieved.
Whenever they do badly, She will scrawl at me saying "hey , I'm get tuition for them,& they shuldnt have such grades, u know", somewhat hinting here & there...

Even then, she'll still be nice to me... She's Wierd or better left not knowing.

So yest, i went over to their house Bought M&M Collectible stuffs for them
Ok saw their results, & lots of certs for the best in this & that...esp for Eng & SCience..

Soon after,their Granny asked me to try her Deepavali savouries & cookies. Soon after, she brought for me to see the KIDS' deepavali clothes that their aunt bought for them from India..

Never seen her so hospitable before. Looks like that the whole family are happy wit their Grades..

& Guess wat, "she" even called me to go for KL trip in Dec with her...Aargh if only i have no attachment...
Might Go... who knows

Its Aint FOr me After All

2004-11-21T02:03:00.000+08:00

Ya, aint for me after all...
Shall Wait For TIme To deciDe
...

2004-11-18T13:51:00.000+08:00

Damn tired...sleepy..yet sloggin to finish up my stuff at work.

Came back home quite late last nite..
But still i'm gonna finish up my staff..ok la 75%. not fully done, yet something...
Haha..lunch time's over. gotta go back..

A Little Note to end Last nite
17th Nov

Its my pleasure..
to lend a ear to ya miseries...
Always will be...
If only ya heart is made of steel...
Guess I wont there wit u
Witnessin all ya Dilemma...
Be Who u are...
Life will be back the way u Wished for...

2004-11-16T13:51:00.001+08:00

Last nite, was something new.
Hope we'll meet again
Riding on somethin "big" was exoTic.

Hoping to Meet again...
Exploit not abt our Old StorieS

Maybe Something Betta...

Till then NtY

2004-11-15T10:54:00.000+08:00

here i am...dyin in boredom
not planning to go for trng, after considering a few things against the biased fatso...

watched "sky captain" .
Wit so many movies in choice y sky captain...
All for the 2 babes Gwyenth & ANGELINA...her lara croft stint is not at all absent in this movie..
& most of the other movies are not interesting either..

& Jude law's face somewhat kept reminding me of the Lagaan's Hero Amir Khan & maybe even more handsome.

Waiting for ALexander, the one who is named the Great Conqueror. But died in the Arms of an Indian King (dunno what Gupta). Aah..thats history & let the Movie narrate it better.

wat is gg on?

2004-11-14T11:24:00.000+08:00

A nite that seemed to never end

Da truths, Lusts,& memoirs all Spilt witH No Guilt

Moments of Giggles, Blushes Swayed Thru the Night..

Gal Oh Gal u dreamt of Making Out Wit Me...

Not sparing any little Descriptions of D Momentzzzzzz

& how u tumble & rumble on ya Bed

Good Enuff to wAke Ya PartnEr

& even made "him" Guess that U were DreAminG Of ME

NarroW EscapE u May think...

& the Hint of Yours that made Me Sink

saying " that U Had seen ya Dreams Come TruE beForE!!!

its nothing but the truTh

told to me on the

Wee hours of 14th Nov at 3am

2004-11-14T02:15:00.000+08:00

ItsZ Boooring..Hate HolidaYs..
Shul go Working or something...
Yikes...Miss the Fun...

In Another Words,,,
Aargh SingleDom SUx...
Some1 savE Me...

SNeakin

2004-11-10T16:26:00.000+08:00

...
I'm not suppose to do this durin my workin time..
But i need a break...ITs Extrememly tiring to be at the Com whole Day. Wonder how the ppl here can take it.

Jus went for the Research Team Meeting.Wooh, Finally i've a true blue Research Stuff To do!
I'm Gonna work wit the Team for a Project At last. All The NP PEEPs, u may see me at NP Library on Sats & in the Evenings when sch re-open..
& Mrs Tay voiced my Contributions during the Meeting. It feels Gr8 to be appreciated At TImes.

But currently stuck with some "No-Brainer Job". ITs aint tough But TEDIOUS & monotonous. No Wonder they Push it to me.
.............

2004-11-10T01:41:00.000+08:00

HUANG NA

its been exactly 1 month, where this poor lil Gal had went missing & is now in Ashes..
My Heart reallY goes Out for this Gal.

Its her smiling face & sweet pair of innocence eyes that must have caught many's attendtion & sympathy.

How can he have the HEart to kill this Lil innocent gal?

Isnt it all for Huang Na, where Her mom came to S'pore to work & support her Lil Gal.
& dreamt of seeing her Lil Gal's Future flourish in Our beautiful City.

What & WHo does she have now?

Little or Never will she expect to see her Daughter to be found dead & decomposed in a Box.

Worse still, to be found in the peaceful hills where I used to Live opposite of it.

I cant imagine losing my Lil cousin or D.L's daughter who is also 9yrs & is jus 2 days younger than Huang Na.

& just imagine the Mother's Agony & Pain...

I really feel Like SLashing That MAlaysian Bas***d...
He should deserve a slow, wretchful Death, Even the Demons & devils of the HELL should feel Sorry for him.

& a msg To Mr Took(father of that son-Of B****),who prayed for Forgiveness from Huang Na at her Wake: "I shall capture your grandchild,have him/her assaulted & shrewn at a river or a forest or worse still appease the Hunger of some wild animals & SHALL SEE what Ya reactions will be like! Wat's the point in still Claiming ya SOn's Innocent"

Sorry to say this, but i think M'sians are reAlly Sick, Perverted, F****nG bastards. Not all la,but some few. To cite few examples of victims--> Melisa Pathinathan, Canny Ong 's case & the Siti -(unsure of full name) who was strangled at her Private apt.

2004-11-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

Food Centres..
Its not just the Carparks, there are food courts too. Yeah yest & today I was gg arnd 8 food centres at China Town, Amoy Street Maxwell & many more.
This one is even more tiring man. Counting the no. of seats, the stalls & more.

In fact i was walking all the way from Raffles place to China TOwn.
My Poor LEgs. All i could fantasize was a nice Foot message or refelexology...AAAaaah, maybe after my 1st Pay.

Next stop...doing some archiving. Sounds great, but its jus some admin work. But to think of it, all these jobs are in fact done by the knowledge officer & research analyst. So its not that bad when i take over for them,i mean its still something.
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Finally i got to shake hand wit MY MD. He seemed so arrogant, busy with this & that. The only person who doesn smile at the Office But today he came forward & asked y i chose reSEarch & asked me how i find it...
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Deepavali shoppin.. Haaha,its kinda settled. Phew bought a Chudithaar, & This time its Blue. Didnt had a blue suit before. Hmm wats the point. Will wear in only once then throw it one side.
Surprisingly i only spend half an hour looking for it. maybe its the age thingy, as u grow older u becom less fussy.

2004-11-05T21:07:00.000+08:00

Carparks...

K...there are also awful moments in my work... Well not in the Office or wat...But then my work schedule. U know today, I went all over the Raffles place area..to all the Buildings & skyscrapers & do one dirty survey..
Take down the Charges of the Car park facilities. A survey for the Office bldgs in Raffles Place.

Can bet u A Million Dollars on it.. Its not fun. Gotta explain to the Guards who u are, where u are from. At times I cant even find the charges at the exit gantry. So have to take a visitor pass & go to the Managemnt office to know the charges. it wasnt glammy. Have to walk down the back alley. All the Dispatch riders giving one strange look. The Lorry drivers unloading & loading goods... & even some whistles here & there.
Yikes,survey aint that fun after all.

TO my surprise, in total i've visited abt 34 bldgs by 3pm.

The cheapest hourly & SEason parking rates in RAFFLES PLace ANyone.

after survey,returned to the OFfice. MY In-Charge was happy. Of cos she has to.
But then realised I had no desk. Oh no,I was so tired & dunn wanna cram wit the MAnager's Round table. HAha, immediately i was assigned to a meeting room.
Its a small room but big enuff for a manager. There's a huge round table, with 3 Chairs, A huge white board, a telephone, Internet access..All for my one self.......Must be the happiest person in Raffles PLace at that moment
It was the biggest treat I've got for doing this survey.
Well guess wat, that rooom is gonna be mine forever ***EArs of Mine DanCing***

2004-11-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

Attachment

so long was M.I.A.. Yeah man, just started my attachment! Haha, Ms Nithya is now so busy & lethargic as if she ran 2.4 km whenever she finishes work.

Not long before, i was abit unwilling to go for attachment. In fact was a bit negative, that i'll be stapling papers & nothing Much. but now, Oooh I learnt lots of Stuff & am learning...

1st day...was more of excitement ,of course. When i first entered, the place was quite warm at the reception area. I mean it looked dark.

The moment i entered the office cubicle, Woah it was so Bright. With lots of cubicles. THinking that I'll be stuck in one of the Cubicle where i've to face the 3 walls...haha, But then To my Surprise, The REsearch Team has an Office of its own! & Not to be missed are some of the Gr8 Window views of UOB plaza, S'pore River, Boat Quay. I wish i could do overtime & Gaze at those sceneries in Night Light

Then MRS TAy gladly intro me to all her colleagues, MD,etc! Soon had to settle down.

Well i dun really hav a desk or terminal of my own. Had to use one of my colleague's who is on leave.

1st day of job was to collect all the Recent REsidential Datas frm Realis...aaah thats PPV! & then Collate them to graphs & some tabulation..(dats Econs & ITA) Man, didnt know i can Forget Excel so fast. But MRs Tay was kind enuff to help me!

The thing that took me to Surprise abt the Research team is that..not long before when i was doing all my projects, i'll be making use of REsearch resources online..& the best part is that, those who are behind those ever-reliable Articles Are in FACT JUST beHIND MY BACK...

Then For Lunch, It was on Mrs Tay, She treated me to Mint Jelly Grilled Lamb. Now that's a Gr8 welcome for a Student!

WEdnesDay 3rd Nov

Finished up on the New Residential Project Launches & calculations a.k.a Analysis for LAunches' Sales.

At noon, Mrs Tay got an email frm NUS that there is a mini Seminar at Suntec abt. Its marketing strengths especially for The Offices in Suntec. She couldnt go, but then asked me to go On her Behalf...

Wow, felt like her P.A u know. Without any relcutance, I jus went.

The Seminar was cool man. It was held just beside the Fountain of Wealth.

Then they brought us to the Pent house OFFICE SUITE...

Goodness Gracious ME. THE office has a $Million Dollar View of whole Singapore man. At 1 corner its Esplanade, Marina Bay at the other,CBD, Beach Road & the list goes on. Thats y its called the Penthouse Office.

AFter that, rushed dwn to trng. Sadly i was kicking for abr 40 min only, then the sky was dark & started to rain heavily. Nothin Much. Went home quite early, tired but felt Good!

2004-10-30T02:17:00.000+08:00

Is It that heaven is BAck again or its Hell in Disguise?
I'm gg for shopping trip with D-L tmr. Deepavali Shopping indeed!
Yeah D-L called, indirectly asking me, u know bragging abt wat am i doing for tmr & where am i? then suddenly asked whether I can join shopping wit her! she'll neva come asking me directly

haha, maybe D-L fears i'll turn her down..
Am happy that I'm not forgotten?
For all i know is that she chooses ppl to mix around with carefully... & wit lots of Reasons.
In that Sense I'm happy to be with her & be the chosen one for many instances
Or is it that she need me for something, just like the other time...
Hey GOD, I just dun wanna be used or taken advantage? Naa. its my damn conscience!!!

Ok...then Tmr shall see how things are going...

2004-10-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

Bloody hell.It was spring cleaning...
Mom was grumblin Madly to Granny this evening. Well she always does! I was quite hurt. Sayin, we're useless, esp ME.
Hey, Mom I did helped u ok! Esp the Cabinet..

BTW Y cant u ask my 2 "ElepGrassyLazy" (elephant size + lazy as grasshopper)Brothers to do something. I dunno y guys seem to get away with Housework.. In fact they are the one who shul do it with ease, given their size!
This is a situation of which i faced over my sec sch days. I still remeber where I've to wash my Bro shoes, Y? cos i was the Elder one. F*** wit that man. Always the Eldest must be this & that... Its so unfair I've to make their bed, sweep the hse, fold clothes etc! But then these Buffaloes will laze arnd & upsizing their bellies...Bloody Unfair(Talk abt unfairness to Lady Libra here.)

But now think of it, All is over for good! Since I've been supporting myself for school for the Past 3 yrs, My mom dare not say or order me to anything! She better not!

But then, as I'd promised u with the Remaining spring cleaning! Will get them done by SAT...Yeah...

2004-10-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

aargh...my tuition kids are havin their Eng papers soon...went over in the evening to teach & get em prepared.

Finally one Stuff settled
Yest at the Chalet, MR TAn who interviewd me for the IAP, suddenly came over asking, how's everything etc. Out of sudden he popped this Qns, "Make sure u have a Laptop for ya attachment ok" I was so like Oh no, must have?
Actually thought that there was no need.
i can recall that during the interview Mr Tan sounded like he was advising me havin a laptop will be good or something. Now its a must have i guess

LAta met Rao...went over to look for one after Tuition.. Haiz, he was so nice. Headed to Sim Lim SQ.
Finally got one laptop. simple one & NEC brand. (BTW he's only lending till Attachment.)

Configurations not that Pro, but when the $$ is in, Maybe i'll get an Apple(I Mac)...
Pam influenced me! She make it sound So PRO, By the way Apple/ Mac are not bad la. Maybe i'm just new to it..nvr heard much of it!

Then head to his pals recommended Indian restaurant...oooh I miss spicy FOOd. Ate like nobody's BIz. (sorry Mom)

will be missing on Class's Zouk trip... have a good time pals..
miss EB's trng today too...(maybe fri then GO if there is)

2004-10-27T09:10:00.000+08:00

Yestdy, chalet, was quite fun. Gotta meet all the Lecturers! Haha...was mingling wit Mixed feelings...Sad & Happy. Ahh,watever it is,gotta leave one day! Had gr8 food,hmm (didnt get to try the Squid so Sad)
Got Pam & then Cindy--> who was at one of her class chalet at the other corner of NTUC tagged over to the chalet kill ma time! JL & SH LEft...was bored..

Then played games, slept at abt 3. Its quite early though! MAybe not much ppl so had to hit the Bed early...

2nd day for chalet

2004-10-26T10:51:00.000+08:00

BBQ
Ok...i'm still at home...cant wait to head to Pasir RIs...so bored though!
It wasnt well coordinated by the organisers of my class. Expected though!
LAta, shuld be able to have some good fun. Helluva lots of ppl will be coming. This may be the last time seeing my COhort.

what else lots of food, Merry, Drinking & Craping... then overnight! ok!
Splash into WIld life... Must make sure that i dun get addicted to Fags

What else.... Reunion Meeting

Well Tmr have to remind to meet Mi Mi...regarding the MarcHe outing...yucks so long meeting her, wonder how she's gonna look like!
Feel so bad abt postponing Jennif & Wei Qiang clubbing offers...
Ok guys, will join u for the post Hallloween, if i have the Dough.

After So long

2004-10-25T14:14:00.000+08:00

Where were u all the While?
Why were u Grudgy wit me?
What made u So grumpy ?
How come u were so "not-yaSelf"?

Alrite,After so long, Had that long amissed Chat (@12 am) wit Dear D---- L---.
She isnt lost, grudgy, Grumpy or not her-self...
Just lost in time, situations etc.
But yeah
Still the same ol worries lingering her, but she sounds like a NewLadY..
Even Thanked me for a Couple of Stuffs! Its my honour always..

Life's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's a compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my doors always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Askin her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

arsenal _Loss

2004-10-25T10:08:00.000+08:00

...
hoho...Thats terrible defeat... for Arsenal.
But at least it came from the Gr8s of Man U. Even though being an Arsenal fan, A loss at Old Trafford is much digestable than from anywhere else!
Nope, i'm not gonna be like Wenger saying that we've been robbed etc..Man U did play well
...

2004-10-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

Biggest game of year: Man United vs Arsenal

It's the biggest game of the English season — Manchester United vs Arsenal on Sunday(today) at Old Trafford. "
The whole world is waiting as well," quotes Arsenal manager Arsene Wenger.
The defending champion Gunners have replaced the Reds as England's No. 1 team, already 11 points ahead of United after just nine games.
The team of the '90s in England, Alex Ferguson's side has slipped badly. Despite four strikers valued at 66 million pounds , the Reds have only nine league goals(hahahaha).
Arsenal has 29 — eight alone by Thierry Henry.

"The Arsenal game is a must-win for us," said Ferguson, who seldom puts himself on the line this way.
"There is a feeling in football that if we can't stop them, no one else will."Gotta Try Harder Fergie
The Gunners are undefeated in 49 league games and lead second-place Chelsea by five points.
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TO what i can recall off...
My love for Arsenal started way before 1998.
It was a chilly Sunday night on July . I was switching channels between espn 23 & starsports 24. They were showing Wimbledon 4th round on 24, between Martina Hingis(my long missed Heart-throb) & someone else.
& then high packed action match up between Arsenal & Man U on 23.
The match was in fact grabbing my attention & found myself reluctant to keep up with the Tennis game on the other Channel.
1st half was where Arsenal leadin then Man U Caught up & same story @2nd Half where both teams Stood to a Draw...
Out of nowhere, Arsenal's fighting Spirit captivated me. Back then Bergkamp, who was simply stunning kept leashing shots but all in fail! They were so Desperate for a win, keeping Man U a run for their money!
It was then at the Dying moments... Anelka a.k.a The Incredible Sulk...Woooooo.... thundered an incredible volley& stunned the Home crowd!
Haha...Hail the New Born Heroes... The Gunners soon became Double Winners...
It was then All histoRy... An unbeatable Team.
What's more, coincidentally, ma LEague team carries its name..

Alrite...now allow me to catch the Action
bye...........

happy Birthday rooney

2004-10-24T10:49:00.000+08:00

My another Teeny Weeny Inspiration...
Happy Birthday Wayne Rooney

Name:Wayne Rooney

Birth Date: October 24 1985 *he's Only 19, Hey we share d Same B'Day Month*

Birth Place: Liverpool *try telling that to Manchesterians*

Birth Nation: England *Its THE QUEEN's Honour*

Nationality: British

Position: Forward
England's #9 & Man U's 8

who am i

2004-10-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

You Are A Relationship Ruiner!

You've got a killer instinct, for killing relationships
Your total fear of intimacy points to you being let down before
Or maybe you truly lack the skills to be a good girlfriend
In any case, relax a little and be nicer to your love. That's all it takes.

Hey Vicky.. isnt this True...

2004-10-23T16:29:00.000+08:00

Pester me not
Move fast not

Jus share ya feelings but with no Expectations
I understand how u feel

but dunno how one can fall too deep too fast..
maybe attendtion is all u need

I may suffice them, but expect nothin more!

Commitment ain't in my dictionary pages
but care & concern will be found in the 1st Page

Misunderstand me not if i show u my Care & conCern,

JUz try to understand me slow & steady.
Intimidate me not, with ya thoughts, Actions & expectations.

heY, I'm not a HeartBreaker but am afraid I'll Break one if It stays on like this..

I am proud know what u LabeL Me as...But I'll jus wanna stay there as it is... Just as Your _ _ _ i_ _ _ _ _ _

2004-10-23T13:57:00.000+08:00

Thanx for Bloggin Dear Zura!
Must have enjoyed it huh!

Just added my pics, all from external sources!
Cant wait to have a camera soon & snapp more & more & own more!*can someone drop me a Siemens S65... its a must have Gadget!*
Have to set Papers for my Kiddies & then Plan My night Out later!
Yest was planning for bbq stuff etc after my launching & Hopefully the chalet Days next week will turn out to be Exotic!

Fri..launching of Attachment

2004-10-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

Things to accomplish

Deliver breakfast to Grandma
Cook Broccoli as mom requested
pay bills
Go to school for attacment launchin & Briefing..(woo hoo)
but work starts on 1st Nov..its too early man..no time to enjoy
Go over to Tuition place & collect & give marked papers
Went over to See the "Her"...
Came home..
Ate & Sleep & most importantly forgot to
blog

2004-10-22T13:32:00.000+08:00

SOme PPl who inspired me on & oFF the Field

SHIDA

Captain Marvel..

CharismaTic

Agile & Fittest

Sexy though...

MEL

The gal who say Never Die,

Powerful leftie

some1 strong on the Mind...

Many's Inspiration..

Cutest too..

FinallY Kadham Kadham

2004-10-21T14:36:00.000+08:00

i'm gg for my last Paper..The Real Estate Law. Alright dunno wats the outcome gonna be like. only spent less than 10 hrs on revising it. Will be happy if i can make it wit C at least..nothing more nothing less! I still remember the last word i've written--Chattel. it means something that's removin it from a property which doenst cause much damage or dun serve any purpose for the trade etc. *Ermm,isnt Exam over Nithya...*
After test,went over to Iz to take my umbrella frm Iz, which i left be4 gg for exam, ended up taggin along her, nipples,Mun,Cindy to Orchard..
Was there physically but mentally dunno where, thinking of my unkown, destined to ??? future..
Sorry Is, was bored though! ANywaY...thats how my last day ended!

2nd last day of School

2004-10-21T11:56:00.000+08:00

Alright BaBy...2 down, 1 more to Go! yeah, tomorow my lasT Paper...Hurrah...Its the Last paper i'm ever gonna take in NP..all for the Last TimE(cross my fingers,in case i fail)
Well today's FYm, had no time seriously! time management,aarghz! Which i really suck at! but still managed to finish em all in time! but couldnt check! Its ok, bygones are Bygones..
had so much plan today,go home & study! but ended up playin pool! Played league(pool) wit 3 of maguy Frens for an hour! In the end i was winning over the guys upsiDe Down. Actually they had very little luck, The Black ball found its way home too Soon & that made me a winner! maybe better luck for them next time! ok.i wanna sleep & crash course on Law!
yawn...zzzz

Wat am I doin???

2004-10-20T12:01:00.000+08:00

nowadays no mood to blog...no more creative juice flowing
mind not thinking..wait...not even suppose to be bloggin now.
shul be in the study desk,cracking my life cycle costing- chapter, but now cycling my life away at da COM.
hehe lata, MOMzy is bringin me to Dinner...gotta chance to see my aunts aft so long...
but still how to enjoy dinner, when my mind is on how to Get my law revision Perfected!
just gotta know that my Lect Group Chalet's next Mon...Kewl...Cant wait to get Drunk,Dunk,Dnk,Dk...hey wat am i Tokin...kk.
Aight Momma,,,coming!!! Stop yelling on ma Day at least...

BMD

2004-10-19T09:19:00.000+08:00

wasnt supose to go for 2dy's paper!

But,,,yeah jus give it a shot. its kinda too easy to miss...so not worth missing

well yeah,,looks like i kinda managed! for the amt of revision i had, think this paper wasnt that bad for me to handle...
Ya rite!!! in fact

was lost & blank for 2 six marks qns! Na! if i managed to get a C, thats lik WOW,needless to say for B grade. ok la still! Shuldnt worry anymore!

1 down 2 more to GO!!!

...

where am i

2004-10-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

feeling gloomy,stressed,stinko,useless,so many things,
..yikes...still have 3 papers to sum up the Week!
ok...the past 3 days have gone down the TrasH! Only god knows where i WAS..
no no..me no gonna talk abt it!
I've to Bear the Pain, Irritations & surpass this dreadful Week
Oh GOD,,I had enuff...
pls stop punishing me...ok ok I wont touch Beef anymoRE! Pls...lemme pass all my exams!
I wanna enjoy my next Sem!

lost in a world

2004-10-16T06:24:00.000+08:00

wat an experience?
look like i jus woke up in a toTal new world!
the lights were kiiling ma eyes & so was the Pain
wires all around.. the machine goes beep...beep..
D lady in green,tapped & askin me the same ol qns! -so wats the scale ?...
I was telling yeah,still at 7..cant tahan
there came another shot of m***ph*n...
yucks! felt so awful! Mommy,Pass me the Greens!
i dun wanna be in this STATE anymore!!!!

Revived back

2004-10-14T04:35:00.000+08:00

Finally, went for my EB trng. Ya Bern, u are rite,Shuld have come for St Soccer trng long before. Its really fun! where the basics of Soccer can be learnt! I feel so RejuVenated. Meet my pals.Feels gd to see em aft so long. Miss ya guys..

HaHa in 1 week time i'm gonna turn 22.(cant believe myself)
Forgive me if I'm asking for my Present too Early
but 1st Lemme draw out wat i wan as my Gift....

Some1 to control ma thoughts
Influence me for Better
Teach me the Unteachables
Spoil Me to A Brat
be my other Half.
Be My insiparation
makes me feel jealous of..a competitive jealousy!
smarter than me...
4get it if its too Obsessive
Its ok if - Commitments not included...& that Turns Me on...

My Dear Wish Gift...Come to Momma Soon...

Revived back

2004-10-13T01:35:00.000+08:00

Depressed

2004-10-12T13:10:00.000+08:00

THese Mon blues neva seem to vanished. I'm feelinG DepreSSed like No othEr day. lots of Things in Ma head,which Are not WOrth Pondering Abt!
MissIn the Good ol Days of trnG,Chats wit FrenS...I need A breaK. But i CAnt for the Next 10 dayS. Shuld begin TO Love mySelf...PampeR &maybe go For a New REvaMp! YeaH, gotta Try & get My this New Fling wannaBe!!! Yikes...YeaH man...shul Go for IT! OOps..I spiLLed Da Beans!

sun blues

2004-10-11T11:35:00.000+08:00

Such a boring day...slacking at the Com.Polishin my boots & jus Cant wait to go For training tomor! I really Miss EB! Also gotta start on my Revision,,there's loads to go thru! Cannot Slack anymor! Last Term liao!

Cute Cubs

2004-10-10T13:40:00.000+08:00

Move over Teddies,here come the Cubbiess!! ooohh..all of suddent jus fall in love with Cubs.. Hated anything to Do with cats be4..but now simply can stop admiring these harmLess looking creatures..oooh, they are so cute! maybe just for 4 years from their birth!

AtachMents

2004-10-10T04:02:00.000+08:00

Oh no what was I thinking when i opened my attachment mail just after my Nap. Can some1 pinch me..is that my name in the Colliers section..OHMyGod...yes indeed it is, Got a place in that Freaking popular company 2 do my option of R.Estate research. K I'm so much gonna eat my words back saying that i wanted to stay at school & do IHP. Na maybe i shuld wait till Oct 22nd & Double confirm wheter i'm really posted there... If yes...I VoW that I'm really gonna so much perform in my 5 months there.(Before that...gonna hop down to the 4D.& really gotta Test My Luck)
Well the best thing's that, my In-Charge is Our former Law LEcturer, who left teaching & is working as a consultant in Colliers...Wow! can any1 tell me wat's happening....Alright, Special Thanks to all my lecturers &of COurse to Mr Tan C H &amp; Mr. Tan T H & Mr Aaron...who interviewd me for the Posting!

Last Day of School Man

2004-10-09T12:12:00.000+08:00

Can u imagine...its my sort of last day for academic term...Wait even i myself cant imagine,how30 months flew so fast. I still remeber my 1st day. Was all alone at the Orientation. There were this grp of students leaders, gave me a file with the Class no. 1A02.. I was like, wat Group 2, cos i hate tat No. so much! Then,there Was MS Soo, so arrogant looking, STERn, Yet Pretty. U know I dropped my hp near her & she ignored...ask her to do that now...na she wont la! But ShuHua was so diff. She clicked with Pris & JEan so fast & even approached me... Haiz, she was so nice,still remember tat sWeet Smile! And now (I, JL,SH) are like all so close,We can one day all Wear MANGO tops, the worse was on the 7th Month we wore All RED...Dun believe check my Friendster. ALL MERE COincidence!..

Ya back to today..yeah,we were rushing to our Projects, the Damn Law, everything was such a mess...Cannot print the Pics for Project(at 1 moment Thought the fotos were possesed ), tutorials for submission still halfway done, tuition at 3pm. Oh no...thinking to myself, this shouldnt be the way! Then at 3, rushed down to Bt Batok...before reaching the block..Ring..answered the Fone & the Tuition was cancelled. I was like Fuming...y cant she tell me earlier... bt somehow, felt lucky & rushed to School & finished the Tutorial & thats is, Called It my Last Day! There were Mixed Feelings, walking back home. But knowin dat my friends who wanna leave sch ASAP, maybe i shuld join in their mood too. Sittin alone at the Bus-stop, waiting for the bus...Dunno y I felt Moody..then came my HErO...IZ. Wa so Glad to See her, telling her how I felT. Then her cute dad came & fetched us & went off to wash his car...Woah, he was so nice. Telling how he played Soccer when young,even polishes Iz'a Soccer Boots. No Wonder it was so Sparkling. He's so cool, unlike mine...ok ok My dad did polished my sch shoes,which was Ages ago but now he cant stand the side of My Boots. Not at all Supportive in SOcceR. Hey y am i Digressing...Then He dropped me home! Then Thats it!

no regrets

2004-10-07T14:30:00.000+08:00

Finally...tots are cleared.. rekindled minds are back to rest...! Expected news in the Morn though, but nevertheless...those arisen feelings are nothing but the TruTh & i'll shall never RegreT havin or Deny theM. As promised I'll always cherish them as The past 3 months have been the best moments in my past 3 yrs...I shul thank God, that thru this fated meeting 3 months ago in #02-09...I've got a chance to focus my mind on some1 else & most importantly to move on from The tormenting 8 months...& that I finally got over from that unrealistic, wierd crush...
Yeah its time to move on...Only Time will DeciDe the Fate,,,till then no RegreTs

2004-10-07T13:38:00.000+08:00

Was cleaning up my pathetic study desk...which was so dirty & messy! then came across my astrology character book... saying... all abt me
Vishakha nakshatra (english star:Librae) Spread from 20 Tula up to 3:20’ Vrischika Rashi. The lords are Sukra and Mangal, Deity is Satragni, Symbol - a leaf-decked triumphal gate. Another name of this Star is Radha, a compliment to Anuradha, the birth star of Surya. From this is derived the fulfillment of action, variety of enterprise, achievement irrespective of the means employed and fearless and unscrupulous pursuit of self-interest. The only objective being to reach the end justifying it by any means fair or foul. Real friendship hardly happens. A man born under this star works at various things but hardly concentrates on any one of them. To spread about and to dissipate is another attribute of this star. The native of this star aims at success and is pleased with it when it happens, nothing else matters. Among other attributes may be mentioned obedience to religious injunctions, quickness of the uptake, and also loss and disaster from enemies , sometimes even death or lunacy. They are always thinking about sex, experts in the jobs of fire, brewery, ?ores and metallurgical operations and do not develop friendship with anybody.(OUCH) They are jealous, subtle, kind, forbidden love, of controlled senses, wealthy and stingy.(THat HUrts) They are intelligent, stable minded, good speakers, love relatives, children and friends. They are great people. They are candid and quarrelsome and addicted to prostitutes. They are witty, obedient, longlived, help many, speakers of truth, short tempered, lovers of women, possess blood-shot eyes and also excel on the secret parts.
Based on your Time of Birth, You are a Gemini:
Lagna/Character:
Gemini is an air sign ruled by Mercury and symbolized by two lovers. It represents the vaisyas or merchants. Geminis often prefer to stay indoors.Geminis are often skillful at a variety of things, and are learned, talkative, jovial, nervous, and restless.
They are quick thinkers and speak nicely. They can often understand people’s intentions.
Sometimes they can become fixed on an idea and can pursue it even if no conclusion is in sight. They are often changeable and indecisive.Geminis enjoy food, singing, and dancing. They may be attached to many women, and can be sexually oriented.
They tend to marry more than once or have several partners. They may make improper and useless friends. They can be tricky.
Because they are intelligent and well-spoken, they tend to become writers, computer programmers, scientists, or secretaries. They are often good ambassadors and skilled artisans. They often work too hard and exhaust themselves.
They tend to have an attractive appearance, curly hair, dark eyes, and a prominent nose.

evertytime

2004-10-06T21:59:00.000+08:00

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
And everytime I try to flyI fall without my wingsI feel so smallI guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreamsI see your face, it's haunting meI guess I need you babyI make believe
That you are hereI
t's the only wayI see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to flyI fall without my wings
I feel so smallI guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreamsI see your face, it's haunting meI guess I need you babyI may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
OhhhhAt night I pray
That soon your faceWill fade away
And everytime I try to flyI fall without my wingsI feel so smallI guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreamsI see your face, it's haunting meI guess I need you babyAfter all...

Mon blues

2004-10-06T01:00:00.000+08:00

Haha...Yest Mon was half blue... well it was abit with the Gift i was carryin home..My 2 Charlie Angels...ahemm...gave me a pair of Thongs as a Bday gift. Hehe...me so blushing...they have a good taste,know.Maybe thats y i'm their FReN!!! Its like 1 has football prints & the other has Leopard skin prints. Leopard? Wondering whether i remind them of Tarzan's G.F Jane or just a fetiSh idea.
hahA..So cool, but too paiseh to wear it la...have alot of 'mao' removing to be done...but this morn i tried em after having em washed last nite,ooh Wat can i say...it looked SEXY... A whip in my hand, haiR Loose & a bikini top would make me the Perfect Winner for CatWoman LookAlike.. hahaha...ok ok..*slap mY Face*
Well it was blue for another reason...i failed my EbbI & worse stiil I gotta do my Test in an Idiot seat-which is the Lecturer's Computer seat. All for wat? Pulling my classmates's cap & revealing his hair(which he claims that it sux). Naa but still i gotta see it ma! so its a Win-Lose Situtation...
For the test,i deserve it, last min preparation neva work...dun think i gonna learn my lesson!

After the test,suppose to go for friendly, but didnt..need to have some rest & study for my Fire saFety tests..cant afford to waste time. I'm sorry Melisa, school come first. For Bernard, wat can I say,as he is a man who wants his players to be more concerned for soccer than anythin else. Come to think of it, jus follow ya inituition. Heard that they won 7-0...! Seriously cant wait exams to be over & start Trng intensively! Yeah,must take this time to improve man!

Triangle

2004-10-05T22:15:00.000+08:00

for the past few days Ive got to know So many news, stories & etc. Some kept me happy..some
kept me wondering.. there has been thing special equal feeling of mine has also been present . happY to know it was there... Feel i have fall short...near yet so far!
Wat can i do,when i gotta hear it..I'm so lost, yet happy, sad that it could not be there anymore, Perhaps i shul come to a point & forget it Be just contented that it wasnt 1-sided after all.
Bul i still luve to just clear my thoughts...is it wrong,,will that cause heartpain to many other(for only GOd Knows who)
Maybe i shuld move away from this LuV triangle, thats wat its being called by so many!
Shul I ignore u&all the news that i always wanted to hear...I'm so lost & it shouldnt have been tat way... I so much wanna share wit u &TO thank u for some special reaSons...& To be as gsod as pals, lemme move on..if ther's gonna be so much conFusion in it!

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
And everytime I try to flyI fall without my wingsI feel so smallI guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreamsI see your face, it's haunting meI guess I need you babyI make believe
That you are hereI
t's the only wayI see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to flyI fall without my wings
I feel so smallI guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreamsI see your face, it's haunting meI guess I need you babyI may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
OhhhhAt night I pray
That soon your faceWill fade away
And everytime I try to flyI fall without my wingsI feel so smallI guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreamsI see your face, it's haunting meI guess I need you babyAfter all...

SloW & SteadY WinS the RacE

2004-10-05T01:19:00.000+08:00

Ok ok...I'm in cloud 9.& also.. ok ok I'm in a devastating position...Dunno which i am at now... Devastating first...I'm still yet to finish my revision for E-Biz..but not even half way there then Fire engrg, Only GOd can save me... Aiyo..I'm not gonna go for the NYP friendly. SOmetimes Studies have to come first...Soccer next..So much gonna stay till 11 in school & study my Fire Safety. The good news? It has Been theRe, Not shown, Hidden all the while,,, Not gonna tell so much...but the CluE is
"SloW & SteadY WinS the RacE... "

Hotty Hot Sunday

2004-10-04T14:11:00.000+08:00

After so long...was going Bukit batok...give tuition to HER angels. Can see that these kids really miss me, as they'll play hide & seek whenever i come in. All the time excited. will definitly miss them when i stop tuition...
There was this moment, where I'll always look forward to go for tuition...wishing to see my D L, catch a glimpse of her. But now I wonder where are all those feeling... we hardly exchang sms, talk for long hours. Not even a thought of her! Gone were the days of Crushed feelings, agonised moments,rapid heart beating or thumping wenever the "ID witheld" displays on my fone!
its a relief that i'm over frm such days...I've gotta be realistc! or am i still in the Denial...no I betta move on...shul go for some1 more like me! Yea...in fact I've Moved on...maybe to like some1 else...dun care wheter it will work out or not...
..well after tuition, went over & gave some feedback of her "Angels' " sch work...Oh she still looks sweet...But my mind has been all clear, no more of those days "mind racing moments" Finally saw her nose pierced & she was complaining that it was painful...Made a
Promised tt the angels will score well for their papers... u know...she's always worried for em...
then off i go...to play soccer.... Soccer was fun though only 3 turned up!!! But it was fun...k k ...no mood to type liao...have to revise

HeY...

2004-10-02T21:21:00.000+08:00

After so long, I woke up so early, actualy not so early la, it was only 7am. Rushed to school..knowing i was late, But luckily, reached there almost in time. It was quite a fun day though! Getting all ma npfc gals to help me. Frankly this kind of spirit wasnt in existence for the past 2 years. Im really lucky to have such a good team of promising & helpful young lads as my team mates... Hmmm was tired towrds the end of the day...hardly bothering the match's outcome toward the knock out stages.... Then went to play pool, haha had a good time beating Iz & Cindy. & Nicole..man she's a humble pie or watever u can call. She is a truly a secret weapon! U'll neva know her strengths untill u play her, let it be on the field or at the Pool table.. She was impressive to sum it up. Felt There were some unwanted feelings & unexpected glances exchanged...haha,,,dunno la...

Went back home instead of Going to Orchard, was really tired! Knocked out within 10 min after my shower, had a good sleep...

Oh no, i've gotta study man!!!

Somewhere Deep in Me

2004-09-30T16:02:00.000+08:00

Who could know the emptiness inside
Every time I see your face
Too many feelings left behind
Do you wonder why
I turn away when you look at me
Never wanting your eyes to see
This desperate heart that knows
How perfect we could be

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can’t help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I can’t help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can’t help falling in love with you
For I can’t help falling in love with you

ooPs Last min

2004-09-28T02:46:00.000+08:00

Sch was nothin special today, jus got a few tips & good news for FYM. My of my! there is a whole lot of chunk to study afterall! Rushed home...took a quick nap, then went to com to start doing my Soccer stuff..Man the com was down...waited for Bro 1 to come & fix it up. Did my stuff untill 3 am..& realised that I'm yet to finish up my REF... actually Its easy though but hard to score! well still have 3 days...yikes but there's Soccer! Na, I'm sure so much that I'll finish it by hook or Crook! Can't wait for my projects to be over!!! HAd enough!

Tired...as usual..No Really Tired

2004-09-25T14:30:00.000+08:00

Hurrah..today was my last day for WISp module...well of all the 3 years, the IS module on World isues is one of the best, but however the french one was the Best of all..all due to the Femme fatale..lecturer Marie Rupelle. Man she's the most Gorgeous, lecturer in Ngee Ann...so good that I even got an A+ for her subject, wonderin till now y i didn get an AD?.
At the end of the day rushed to tuition,finally met my D L. coming back form work. it has been 21 days last i've seen her, oh she still look gorgeous as ever...! after tuition, rushed to Bradel, sometimes i wonder, rushing here & there sux up all my energy reducing me to a lousy player on the field! Sigh, finally met the old timers of tampines. Were there any memories among them flashin back?

it ws dinner time, Pam & sav were not there! I was bored, using my mouth just to gobble ma food! finally back home!

Cnosfued

2004-09-24T02:42:00.000+08:00

They say: Friendship often ends in love but Love in friendship never.But I say: Friends are your best lovers who else can accept your Flaws & errs.
They say:If you judge people, you have no time to love them.. I say:Ya its true..I should stop doing tat.(*winks*)
They say:You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person PERfectly!... I should
I say: Hey ther's no 1 perfect in this World lor. so 4get it.
They say: Go & tell or at least show the 1st move to the one u like...But I say:I dun wanna this liking to be based on looks..as I've been deceived well enuff by looks. If i ever want to Love some1, I'll want that love to be something I'll cherish for my lifetime even though she May not be with me till Death! Its time for me to be serious after years of hanky pankiness...

for me it has been hell & pleasure in love & relationship to date. lemme put em all behind my Back & enjoy the Life I'm goin thru now,soccer,exams,frens,GGRs...
At least for the 1st time in my life, I wanna love some1 deep...I mean DEEP!!!

late Entree

2004-09-16T16:45:00.000+08:00

haha, thanz to Pamela. I gotta a chance to have my own blog. though it seems a bit kiddy, think it makes reader wonder & guess alot of things from the stuff thats written in.

..lemme start of with wat happened today. Nothing much. went to school with 4 hrs sleep, missing my 8 o clock lessons, Nothing done to my project. then went for school trng. finally Melisa is back & so are my other members. things are getting better in the field, gotta say. . .